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good morningggg :)

why is it that i always do this at the early hours of the morning?
i need to start sleeping. as seeing school starts wednesday.
but anyways.
i'd like to know why people can be so stupid?
i mean, dont you think that if someone wants to know something they should go to the person not to the persons bestfriend?
it makes me kinda angry when people do that.
but anyways,
i'm writing a new song when i get home :)
woot woot.
i think i will make this blog short tonight,
cause i'm tired and whatnot.

goodniiiight ladies and gents.
love.

i want to cry.

hello ladies and gents.
i had a pretty good day, until like 20 minutes ago.
i mean, i slept in which is always nice.
woke up and went swimmning, got ready and went to the race at the peterborough speedway.
which was pretty amazing, i meaaaan cars going in cirlces woooot, my fav!
haha, and we made bets on who was going to win.
well i won twice :D
buut now that we are back home and whatnot.
my stepdad is in a badmood for some unknown reason.
and my mom is sick, and i have somuchon my mind that i would like to explode.

but yeah, i dont really feel like typing anymore.
so i might fill everything in tomorrow.

g'night.

i really can't sleep.

kay, i know its been like ten minutes since my last post
but i have alot on my mind so i can't sleep :(
so instead i'm sitting here listening to music and probably writing something to bore someone to death haha.
but yeah, i hate when i have alot on my mind. its usually when i write songs buuut sincee its almost two in the morning i can't sing since i'm at my trailer.
and my bestfriend is sleeping right beside me -__-
so i guess i will just tell you what i'm thinking about.
i think i can't sleep cause school is starting wednesday, and i am excited but scared :\
i mean i didnt do very good last year, and alot of the friends i made are moving to a new school.
its sad.. i dont even have school supllies yet. D:
but another thing that has been on my mind alot is singing, i mean lately i have wanted to start trying to be come known, even if its not by alot of people.
i mean, singing is what i love to do.. and i really want people to know me for that.
earlier today, well actually i guess its concidered yesterday now
my friend and i were walking about the trailer park listening to our ipods and i was singing along and my friend. (kassidy.) turned to me and told me that i was a good singer and stuff i'm too lazy to get into the whole thing. haha
buut yeah i really want to be known, but i dont know how to go about it.
anyways,
i think i have got some stuff off my mind so i might be able to sleep now.

hopefully.

haha good morning.

firsssst things first.

hi,
its 1:38am.
so i think i'll explain myself a little bit,
i'm courtney, and more than anything i want to be a singer.
my only problem is that i have horrid stage frieght :(
any cures for that? if so, please let me know :
haha, but anyways.
i write my own songs, and lately i've been thinking about recording myself and putting the videos/ recordings on the internet, maybe youtube or something.
buut i am so scared of what people will think.
i mean i can take critisim.( i dont think i spelt that right)
but i still don't know.
i know that wanting to be a singer is a big dream, and can be hard to reach.
buut i dont think that any dream is too big or too small.
and anything is possible.
buut yeah, anyways. i'm done rambling on about myself.
so i think i will stop typing now :)

ps, i'm new at this. so yeaah
oh and thanks ainsley for getting me into this :D

goodnight.